A Partial Exhale

Well, today is the CaRMS Application submissions deadline. I've submitted seventeen applications to my field of choice, spanning fourteen schools. Some of my colleagues have applied far more broadly, some far less; some are still wrapping up their applications, taking advantage of the final five or so hours we have to make edits. I'm waiting … Continue reading A Partial Exhale →

Connections Made and Missed

We sit together in silence on his couch, eyeing one another in a way that is both overly familiar and yet strange. The guitar rests on his lap, protected from falling by a gentle hand. This moment feels intimate, borderline uncomfortably so, and I'm briefly thrown back three years to a train stop in eastern … Continue reading Connections Made and Missed →

Call

Heartache Isn’t always feeling lovesick Sometimes it’s Despair Disguised as Inadequacy It’s not enough words - Being incapable of Conveying this much Feeling Is the hardest part of This It’s lying next to your Lover when they Won’t love your body It’s contemplating the Worst Parts Of humanity and Finding them within Yourself It’s that … Continue reading Call →

On Abscesses

There’s a hole in my leg, long filled with granulation tissue - a small, circular scar. An area of my lower left leg began swelling one day; I noticed it in a bathroom stall at school. It was slightly warm and a little bit painful on palpation. By the time I got home, the swelling … Continue reading On Abscesses →