These words were written as an unsent note to a lover on a sleepless night in May, after a conversation on antidepressants. As a caveat, I do experience happiness, though for the past few years I've been wondering if the way in which I do is more akin to the way someone with tritanomaly experiences … Continue reading On Serotonin Deficiency
Author: Steph
Chronic student. World traveller. Part-time musician. Aspiring clinician-scientist.
How To.
The rain beats down hard and heavy against the living room window. We expected it two days ago, two days that were instead spent chasing down the best frozen yogurt, walking along the boardwalk, and drinking beer on patios. It's welcome now, in the stillness of a day intended for cleaning the house and sorting … Continue reading How To.
On Abscesses
There’s a hole in my leg, long filled with granulation tissue - a small, circular scar. An area of my lower left leg began swelling one day; I noticed it in a bathroom stall at school. It was slightly warm and a little bit painful on palpation. By the time I got home, the swelling … Continue reading On Abscesses
Unsent email #2
The day you disappeared from the internet, my heart was seized in a vice-grip of anxiety which quickly transitioned into anger. Perhaps you’ll be pleased to know that you still can have this effect on me; perhaps you’re utterly indifferent, which is preferable but I sense isn’t quite the case. I have a feeling your … Continue reading Unsent email #2
she.
a tiny bit of belly on her post-eating disorder body « I love the way you are, the way your mind works, love the way you look, » he says and smiles a cascade of words and water around them and pulls her, bare, into his own bare arms one by one, four years of conversations are … Continue reading she.
Inarticulate woman.
I am inarticulate I find myself incapable of justifying my positions. I am too moderate I can’t advocate for one side without also plugging for the other I am sympathetic I can’t help but try to understand other perspectives But this, this ignites something deeper within me I am a woman I am white, I … Continue reading Inarticulate woman.
Nostalgia
It's 7:23pm, my second-favourite time of the day. I'm seated before this gorgeous summer view of a lake in the city centre, one of hundreds in this region. Finzi, a delightfully fat cat (named after the composer, naturally) graciously sharing his home with me for a few days, sits on the table next to my … Continue reading Nostalgia
Living “Sustainably”
Sustainable living can mean a lot of things. For me, at least, the first step was and is to be more conscious of what I purchase, use (or don't), and ultimately consume. Whenever I buy something, I aim to follow these steps: 1) I first look to see if it can be bought used. Oftentimes, the … Continue reading Living “Sustainably”
Peace
The past six weeks have been... eventful, to say the least. I travelled through six countries; my relationship of four years ended; I got accepted to medical school; I graduated from university; my grandfather passed away; I left one job to begin another; I've been to concerts and seen dozens of people and have laughed and cried … Continue reading Peace
Minimalist Travel: European Spring Edition
Summer is here! Well, not officially, but we've been privy to some gorgeous weather and warm temperatures this side of the Atlantic. I'm about a third of the way through a trip through Germany, the Benelux region, and Iceland. So far, I've explored Bavaria from München, visited the Rhine and Black Forest from Frankfurt, and … Continue reading Minimalist Travel: European Spring Edition
Northern demoiselle 